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#8 Phat Girls

Doris — Thu, 20 May 2010 21:40:38 +0000

So, this is also another club I joined but it is also mostly one ethnicity. Which is black, I love black people. Well, it is about female women and gossip. But it really is a chance for female black students to talk with each other about daily stuff and everything we say is confidential. It is a bond between us, and we are there for each other. We would meet every Monday, but I have not been lately because of finals and how I need to prepare. But really this club is awesome, everyone is nice and we were mostly all seniors. So, I am not really sure how the club will survive without us. I am really glad I joined too. We can thank Ratima. I actually liked how we were given the opportunity to be able to speak openly about teenage girl things that we would usually keep to ourselves. I was not there from the beginning but I actually joined mid way. But they also welcomed me with open arms.

#7 Learning how to cook rice

Doris — Thu, 20 May 2010 21:18:08 +0000

I know, it may not seem like much but you have to get the water level right in the pot. If you add too much water it turns out soggy, and depending on what you like you have to add the right amount of rice. I usually do not cook around my house because I really think I am going to mess up. No, I am lazy. >.> But my mom has a technique where you use your index finger to measure the water height. But before you do any of that you have to wash the rice thoroughly because it’s not clean when you get it. No, I really do not know why. That is the first thing I learned to cook. I know, I am getting older and I need to learn more life skills. But I am taking my time to accomplish certain things. I really am responsible when I want to be. Isnt everyone? Anways, if I remember correctly my rice turned out good.

#6 Learning how to drive

Doris — Thu, 20 May 2010 21:12:41 +0000

Tell me why I am such a natural? Haha, I really am. I was so nervous at first but once I stopped overthinking the situation I actually did fine. I mean, I still have some rules to learn but besides that I did great. I actually can not wait to get my license. But I am stalling because of school and how much of a demand it is asking of me. (night school too) Anyways, so I was in my sisters honda and she let me drive up the hill going to Burton. We actually practice around McClaren park because it is empty and there’re hills, etc that I could work on without traffic. After awhile, I got a chance to drive my sister’s boyfriends truck, I think that was easier then driving my sister’s honda. I do not know why but I liked it more. Their pedals are different, like his was softer to push and my sisters needed a bit more of a push. I actually needed to stop using both of my feet. But I rememeber after my third time driving I stopped using both my feet. I was proud of myself. Except for when I took a wide turn, I am so glad there was no one around because I ended up on the wrong side of the street going up a hill. I was disappointed, I am so critical about things I really try at. I think that is why I do not try my hardest at other things because of how much it is a disappointment to fail. But I really, got back at it. Driving takes all of your attention and it looks so easy when other people drive. I hope that I get good enough to be able to multi task. Just kidding. that is how accidents happen.

#5 Teriyaki house

Doris — Thu, 20 May 2010 21:00:06 +0000

This resturant is a philipino, chinese family owned place. They are very kind and their sushi is one of the bests. This is one of my sister’s boyfriends favorite places to eat at. Actually, I went yesterday and I have always wanted to go inside but because of my alergies I do not really try to eat sea food. It will not kill me but I will break out. Definately, not a good choice to eat everyday. So, when we went there I actually ordered teriyaki to avoid breaking out. I do not think I will be going back there because it’s in an area that is not a popular place. I also need a good reason to go there because it makes me feel like it is one of those places where a serial killer could live. Haha, just kidding.

But it is rather close to my mom’s work in south city. I just do not like it there because it is empty and quiet. There is always this awkward vibe I get from quiet places. That is probably because I am used to the noise of the city.

#4 Mr. Williams

Doris — Thu, 20 May 2010 19:31:33 +0000

I was not exactly sure if this is a stretch mark but I am going to write about it anyways. Mr. Williams is a teacher at Thurgood Marshall, and he changed my life basically. I hardly ever have any sort of positive feelings towards a teacher but he really made me want to break out of my shell and do things without thinking about the negative effects. I wish that I had met him sooner. He inspired me, because he was able to see that I am more then I am letting people know. I told him I am going to change the world one day and he believed me. I mean teachers will say anything to get you to do their work but I really felt like he meant every word he said. I told him that one day I am going to make a difference, and he said that he gets a certain vibe from me. Like, when you first meet someone their presence just makes you feel something and he said that I have this sort of presence where it is just like, I am going to be someone. I really do hope he was not trying to boost my ego up, because it worked and I hate being manipulated. Anyways, I am really glad to have been in his class for night school. It was not such a terrible experience like I had thought it would be. I really, really enjoyed his class. I hardly enjoy anything that has to do with school. It is such a difficult thing for me. Now, I am considering joining the peace core after college, I have not spoken to my mom yet about it because she is not exactly open to what I want to do. She just expects me to get a 9-5 job like everyone else.

#3 BSU

Doris — Thu, 20 May 2010 19:26:27 +0000

I joined BSU this year, and although I am not black. I thought it would be a fun experience because I do not really particpate in any kind of school activity. Other than going to class and doing what I am asked of. But I hardly do that too. It is really not my fault, but I felt like by being in BSU I was able to make that club more diverse. I mean yes, it is originally suppose to be all about black students. But, they greeted me and accepted me as I am. I did not exactly feel welcomed but that is because sometimes they would do somethings and expect black students to participate, so when I wanted to get involved it was sort of a shock. But I do enjoy breaking boundaries and pushing limits. It’s really a fun thing to do.

When I first joined that club I felt like an outsider, but then I was able to become comfortable. I even sometimes joked about how I am black. But I am not, really. Haha, I sometimes get told I am more black then some of the black students there. I think that is really funny. Maybe, I am just ghetto. I hope that is not the case. I really just did what my friends were doing and followed their lead. I know following is not an attribute that I should continue to use but then again I also sometimes feel like in order to lead you must first follow. But that is just me.

#2 prom

Doris — Thu, 20 May 2010 09:18:56 +0000

I did not go to prom my junior year so this year was the first time I went. I wore this mid-lengthed navy blue dress and I also got my make up done. you were there and you said hello. I think we hugged, I am not sure. I showed up late around 8pm because I took too long to get ready.
it really felt like a dinner party then anything else. the dance floor was kind of small and it ended a hour early. but I was glad I went. I had fun dressing up and exceeding expectations. my shoes were cute! but with cute shoes you immediately know your feet are going to hurt. my feet did, I even took them off and considered walking barefoot.
I didn’t have a date but I’m also glad I didn’t because I was allowed to do as I pleased.
I took pictures with Ratima, and a bunch of other people. It also made me kind of sad because I realized how much time is left that I have with everyone. I did not go to any after parties because my mom would not let me but I’m also glad that she did nou because of the stories I have heard. I’m glad I played it safe.

#1 A wedding

Doris — Thu, 20 May 2010 09:07:01 +0000

I do not exactly remember their names but this was the first wedding I have ever been to. I also did not really know the bride and groom because they are part of my sisters boyfriends family. I was invited last minute, I did not mind too much. I was really there to keep my sister company because I knew she would be overwhelmed with meeting her boyfriends family all at once. it was beautiful.
although I do not believe in god I really enjoyed being there. at first I did not think I would become emotional but the love between the bride and groom was just so powerful. I remember in the backround they had a church choir. it felt like they were angels.
not kidding.
during the reception the first half was boring because all the songs they played were slow jams and hello I felt like an outsider. I liked the second half, when it got darker. I remember dancing to YMCA. that song needs to disappear forever. I remember the grooms best man made an ass out of himself. I think he was drunk or high but that could have just been his nerves.
I’d like to go to another wedding some day, they are actually fun. I always pictured a wedding to be boring and something I would dislike. But I look forward to the next one I am invited to, or if i ever participate in one. That would be exciting, right? I also felt kind of out of place because I did not know the family well, but I knew my sister’s boyfriends immediate family. So, that made it kind of easier. I disliked some pictures I took because I was not comfortable in the dress I was wearing. But I am hardly comfortable in any dress I wear. I am not girly.

Blog #15

Doris — Tue, 11 May 2010 07:07:54 +0000

so I’ve been thinking about somethings. I know I should be writing about last week but i’m not going to. well, anyways so I’ve decided when I get a job I will put money away for twenty years. then when I’m 30+ I will donate school supplies to Burton. assuming it’s still open then. inbetween now and then I will be buying books and then I will create a library in my home. when I die I will donate every single book. I want to buy a house in a small town and I want to meet a kind family. (rare) and then I will give my house to them and in return I ask they take care of my home, etc. I want to adopt a kid, and regularly visit it’s parents. I don’t want to adopt to be someones mother but to help it survive. I want people to realize that my lifes goal isn’t going to benefit myself but everyone else around me. I hope to enlighten people because today’s society is selfish. I hope to bring change to the world one day. it’s just a matter of how.

Blog #14

Doris — Tue, 04 May 2010 17:27:35 +0000

I can say that I forgot what happened last week. I remember it feeling really long, I don’t know why exactly. maybe it’s possibly because I’m counting down until the day we graduate. oh yeah! Prom, ha. It wasn’t all that, it felt more like a dinner then anything else. besides my feet really hurt that day, my sister says they’re suppose to hurt. >.> never again, hopefully. I didn’t do anything afterwards, my mom specifically told me to go home after. I’m sort of glad I didn’t either.